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i've been married for more than a week now and i'm still not used to it! i still get all excited whenever i think about it. :D it was a very awesome day- a little stressful at first but after the ceremony and everything, it was fabulous. we had a very relaxed and fun backyard reception and i had a GREAT time. nic's parents did a TON of work fixing up the house for the reception and picking out really nice decorations for the backyard. i was soooo happy that my parents, sister, and niece drove all the way to michigan to be there- it would have been awful to get married without them!
i'll cut this to save everyone's friends page, ( but here are some wedding pics... )
nic's parents got us the amazing gift of tickets to see the beatles LOVE cirque du soleil show in VEGAS! sooo, after the long drive to michigan and a week-long stay there, we made the even loooonger drive to vegas to see the show! it was absolutely incredible and i would love to go see it again!
another cut to spare your friends page, ( some vegas pics, taken with my iphone! )
there is so much i could say about the wedding and our trip to vegas/home, but right now i am crazy tired from all the driving! i should be in bed but i'm not sleepy...yes, i know, tired but not sleepy makes no sense. but it's true! i covered all the important stuff and posted pics, so that's good enough. :)
to finish off this blog, i'll post my updated 'visited states' map. so many new states in the past week!
visited 22 states (44%)
Create your own visited map of The United States or another interesting project
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[06 Jun 2009|08:43pm] |
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so....I AM MARRIED! more to follow when i have pics to post.
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hi, anyone who still reads this. :) i never blog anymore. i dunno why. there's not really very much to blog about. but, here's a blog of the few things that are going on.
so, the anxiety stuff. not awesome, but getting there, i think. i found a new doctor who is fabulous, i am back on the old meds, and now i'm just waiting for them to fully work. it's been about a month but i've read it can take up to 2. i'm hoooooping that they'll work as well as they did before i (stupidly) stopped them, but there's nothing to do but wait and see. i really really really don't want to have to start over on something new...but i won't know for awhile, i guess. i really need something to make it better because i'm really freaked out about getting a job...i do NOT like the thought of panic attacks at a workplace. at all.
next up, i have fabulous insomnia. i'm still trying to find something to help. i was given ambien, fail. lunesta, fail. melatonin, valerian, allergy pills, unisom, fail fail fail fail. i ordered some kava kava root (can't seem to find it anywhere), which i've heard is really good, so i'm excited for that to get here. i mean, it's kind of nice sitting around in the quiet until 3-4am, but it's a messed up sleep schedule and it's bad for my anxiety. being up all alone gives me too much time to think about things, which makes me find things to worry about, which brings anxiety and panic attacks. so, i'm working to fix it.
next, i am currently on day 5 of a pretty bad headache. well, it varies in intensity throughout the day, but it's been pretty bad. it even went away for a few hours yesterday, which was AWESOME! excedrin migraine doesn't help, and fioricet (which nearly ALWAYS works) isn't touching it. vicodin made it much less severe for a little while. caffeine doesn't help. so, i'm not really sure what else to try. i don't really want to pay to go see the doctor, but i guess if it continues i'm going to have to.
OKAY! moving on to the awesome happy positive things. :D i figured i'd get the bad stuff out of the way first.
first, i love my niece so much it's insane. she turned 2 in april. she's just a little tiny (small for her age) crazy super smart ball of energy. every time i see her, she's saying something new or showing me something new that she can do. she absolutely loves nic, and he absolutely loves playing with her, so it's SO cute to watch them together. she finds him completely hilarious, so whenever they are playing i get to hear crazy hysterical giggles, and i LOVE that sound. (speaking of zooey, the ice cream truck just went by. she LOVES the ice cream truck - not for ice cream, she doesn't like ice cream, she just likes the music and loves to see the truck. so cute.)
I AM GETTING MARRIED IN 26 DAYS! i am so crazy excited for this. i posted the pictures of the bouquets yesterday, and i can't stop looking at them. i love that they will never go bad and i will always have my flowers. also, fake flowers are immensely cheaper than real ones. a couple of people i showed the pictures to thought they were real. i still have to wait a few weeks to get my dress back from alterations- it won't be back until the monday before we leave (that saturday) for michigan. i hope it's all okay because there won't be time to fix anything! tonight we're going to men's wearhouse to do tux stuff. we're dragging my dad along in case they're going to do fittings. after that's taken care of, it's really just waiting to go. once we get there we need to pay for the food and stuff, but that's about it. i can't believe it's so soon!
so...i think that's it. the good stuff and the yucky stuff. not a whole lot, really.
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[19 Mar 2009|01:13am] |
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yes, these lyrics and video need to be posted. because this is one of the best songs from flight of the conchords second season.
Lemme tell ya
I see you girls checkin' out my trunks
I see you girls checkin' out the front of my trunks
I see you girls checkin' out my junk, then checkin' out my rump, then back to my sugarlumps
When I shake it, I shake it all up
You probably think that my pants have the mumps
It's just my sugarlumps bump ba bump
They look so good, that's why I keep 'em in the front
All the ladies checkin' out my sugarlumps
The drive the ladies crazy
All these bitches checkin' out my britches
Put 'em in a trance when I wear track pants
My dungarees make them hun-ga-ree
They're over the moon when I don pantaloons
My sugarlumps are two of a kind - sweet and white and highly refined
Honies try all kinds of tomfoolery to steal a feel of my family jewelry
My cannonballs cause a kerfuffle - the ladies they hustle to ruffle my truffle
If you party with the Party Prince, you get two complimentary after-dinner mints
We see you girls checkin' out our trunks
We see you girls checkin' out the front of our trunks
We see you girls checkin' out our junk, then checkin' out our rumps, then back to our sugarlumps
Chillin at my store, doin' my thing, when in walks a guy with his dick in a sling
I'm like, "Holy shit, what happened to you?
He said, "How much will you give me for the family jewels?"
I said "Ten bucks" He said "No way!"
- "Ten bucks and a Frisbee" He said "Okay"
And I took his sugarlumps and put 'em up in a display, and sold 'em as hacky sacks later that day
All the ladies they want a taste of my sugarlumps
Sweet sugarlumps yeah
All the ladies they want a taste of my sugarlumps
Sweet sugarlumps
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i would just like to say that i have the best, most supportive family & fiance ever.
i'm having a really hard time lately dealing with my anxiety, and i'm trying my hardest to work through it and get better, but i can't imagine going through this without all the great people i have around me. they are here with me when i'm at my worst and most upset or scared (even if it's for no reason or for a silly reason). they do everything they can to make me feel better and feel like i'm not alone.
i feel like i don't tell you guys enough how much i appreciate you, and everything you have ever done and continue to do for me. i hope i am able to be there for you and support you as much as you have done for me. you guys are amazing and i love you.
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[19 Nov 2008|10:54pm] |
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started some new meds on friday...waiting for them to start working. will probably be another week and a half or even longer, could take up to a month. REALLY hoping these ones will help, because it just feels like it's becoming too much sometimes.
i think i feel the best when i'm in this little room with my futon and my books and DVDs and games...and there's nothing here to worry me except my thoughts. those, unfortunately, follow me everywhere. i wish i could stay in my room all the time but that's impossible. i'm going back to michigan on the first...and when we get back it'll be time to start working again. the thoughts follow me everywhere, but at least in my room i can cry if i feel like it without worrying what everyone is thinking.
i need to find a way to deal with it all, whether or not the meds work for me. i can't be getting upset at a job. i can't spend my whole life afraid of 'what ifs' and feeling scared for sometimes no reason at all. there has to be a way to make it easier.
i hope more than anything that these meds will help me. it feels like it's worse now than it ever was before. it's scary feeling as if it'll never get better.
i have the best fiance and best family ever, otherwise i don't know how i'd get through this.
i just want to feel better. i want to feel good again.
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[29 Oct 2008|05:15pm] |
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so, i was really happy that i was able to stop taking my meds, and that i had been doing so well without them. but now...i'm thinking that when i get insurance and a new doctor...maybe i need to go back on them (or something different that may work better). i've been doing really well up until the last week or so, and i don't know why i'm not anymore. lots of anxiety and feeling sad for no reason. i still had that sometimes when i was on the meds, so maybe i need to try something new. i dunno. i'm just really, really tired of feeling like this. i know i'm not much fun when i get like this, either, and that sucks for nic, and for my family when i'm at home. i really want to feel better for me, but more than that i want to feel better for THEM. i know i'll feel better eventually, but i also know this feeling will come back at some point. so that sucks. i'd like to be able to find something i can take to make the feeling stop.
anyway. 2 weeks till i go home to visit. that'll be fun. i'll miss nic, but it's only 2 weeks and then i'll be back with him again...and then just a couple weeks until we're in TX for good. can't wait for that. hopefully i'm feeling better before i leave.
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i was tagged by my mom for an '8 things you may not know about me' meme, and i don't think i can think up 8 things everyone doesn't know about me, so i'll just post '8 things about me'.
1. i hate conflict, arguments, drama...i try as hard as i can to avoid it. it doesn't always work because there are people that love it, but i try.
2. prior to may i had never lived outside of MA, and now i've lived (and will be living again) in TX and i'm currently living in MI!
3. i wish i had more skills and could do more things...all i know (with regards to work/jobs) is pharmacy and it makes it sort of hard to branch out.
4. i worry about many things that i have no control over, and i kind of hate it. i wish someone would find a cure for anxiety. i am trying very hard to keep my mind off of my anxieties and trying not to worry about things that i can't control, but it's not easy at all.
5. i am currently the happiest i've ever been due to my amazing fiance. he helps ease the aforementioned anxiety and balances me out like no one ever has. the thing i am looking forward to most right now is being married and having an awesome little family.
6. i am officially taking ZERO prescription drugs for the first time since high school. this is a huge accomplishment for me and i'm really proud of how well i've been functioning without them, especially considering i'm living away from my family for the first time ever. i wouldn't be able to do it without their support.
7. i'm really nervous about having kids, but also really excited about it. hopefully by then i'll have more patience, either that or i'll GAIN more patience by having kids. i know that nic and i are gonna be an awesome team.
8. i really don't have a #8 at this point...i'm so tired! i'm sure most people that read this already knew most, if not all, of the above...but really, i'm pretty open about things so there's not a whole ton that people don't know about me.
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tonight nic and i went to see a documentary about the beatles' album/cirque de soleil show 'love'. he didn't really want to see it but he knew i'd like it so we went (he's so sweet!). i actually didn't even know it existed but nic found out about it. it was really good, i liked it tons. nic even kinda liked it!
i keep forgetting to send in my absentee ballot request so i think i'm going to be SOL for voting this year. i'm hoping we'll all be able to avoid talking about politics too much when we get back to TX because i don't wanna hear arguments and stuff over it. i hate politics and how vicious people get over it.
i've been emailing with a bakery that does wedding cakes and hopefully we'll go in for a tasting sometime soon. i keep thinking of things that need to get done and i'm not ready to do all of it!
today is rainy and cold and feels like it has been going on forever. i'm soooo tired for some reason!
this post was probably all over the place and stuff but like i said, i'm tired.
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we went to pat's tonight to play rock band. we played a few songs, the xbox froze up, and then...red ring. no more rock band at pat's for about 6 weeks. we had just FINALLY given him his birthday present (his bday was in july) of an xbox memory card so he could bring his profile to other people's houses/xboxes, and he hadn't transferred the profile yet. so he's gonna bring his hard drive to payton & chrissy's on monday and transfer it over. luckily the hard drive is still okay!
so, after the red ring of death, we went out to meijer and bought the new monopoly- it has debit cards! the game didn't go very well, nic had bad luck and i'm just plain flat-out a horrible player, so i made stupid deals and things didn't go so awesome (except for pat, he benefitted from my stupidity). while we were playing nic's friend danielle called to see if we wanted to go out for drinks, but we were busy.
before we went over there i made peanut butter temptations (i can't get the link to work for some stupid reason, but it's here: http://www.hersheys.com/recipes/recipes/detail.asp?id=4500&page=2&per=25&category_id=20&quick=1&CategoryPage=true#content_area). they came out awesome. i'm proud of them because they are only the second thing i've made that wasn't from a mix. we brought a dozen to pat's, left a few for nic's family, and nic is bringing the second dozen to work tomorrow to share with his weekend peeps.
so that's today. tomorrow night and sunday we are going to dinner with different people, so that's cool. it's insane, we have stuff to do almost every night, it seems. wednesday is our no-plan, watch a movie together night, which is good. so yay for all that stuff.
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i haven't been awake very long. i hate mornings, i just sit in bed with the macbook and have no motivation to get up and get dressed. i hate that. also i have a bad headache today so that doesn't help.
no plans so far for tonight, but this weekend we are going out to dinner twice, with different people. not sure where we are going tomorrow night (was supposed to be mongolian barbeque but one of the couples we are going with has to bring their kids and it's not the best place for that) but we are going with the 2 guys nic works with on saturdays and their wives/girlfriends. sunday is japanese food with payton & chrissy (on them! how rad is that). so it sounds like we're gonna be having some awesome food this weekend. i really like nic's friends, i'm hoping some of them will come to visit us in TX at some point. nic keeps saying they're my friends now too but i keep thinking of them as 'nic's friends'.
i reeeeeeally need to get up and get dressed. i'm hungry and need to do something about that. i think we got waffles last time we were at the store so those would be pretty good for breakfast!
seriously though, i hate mornings!
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just sitting around today, mostly. finished another book, played LOZ: minish cap (wooo gamefly) for a couple hours on my DS, until i got a small headache...now i'm just hanging around watching food network. i also did a ton of nic's laundry, so yay for that.
sort of hoping we might move the xbox upstairs so we can get some use out of it. if we're gonna do that...we should do it tomorrow sometime, so nic can maybe play while he's recovering from his wisdom teeth coming out.
i want to change my gamertag ONE MORE time, but i don't have enough MS points just now. i shall have to wait until i can get some points. i think i should start making a list of things i'm gonna do/get when i have a job again! MS points, pants (maybe...i hate trying on clothes!)...that's really all i can think of right now, so i don't know what i'm talking about.
we went to payton & chrissy's house last night and played rock band...their 7 year old daughter wanted to sing a couple songs before she went to bed, so she sang 'still alive' and it was AWESOME. a 7 year old singing still alive? too cute. i told them they HAVE to get rock band 2 before nic & i leave...that way we can play online! pat has it, i know donovan & CJ have it now...so we need payton & chrissy to get it too. hopefully we'll all be playing lots of online xbox after we get back to TX.
so i think that's all that's going on lately. tonight nic is at a C# meeting/class/whatever thingy. he'll be doing something like that every week so i'll have to hang out by myself on those nights. i COULD go with him, but really, that'd be silly and probably super boring.
i just remembered i was in the middle of another book when nic brought me home the one i just finished, so i can totally go back to that. i think i also have another book i brought with me that i haven't read yet. wooo!
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[07 Oct 2008|10:58pm] |
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i have been headache free (aside from a short-lived headache the other night) for about 4 days now. this is very awesome, since prior to that, i went for about 2 weeks (at least) with a constant headache. i'm hoping i haven't jinxed myself, but yeah...i've been feeling pretty awesome. i really hope it lasts!
in other news, i'm engaged to the most amazing man on the planet. he cares more about me than i ever thought someone could (outside of family). he's the only person (aside from my mom) that can make most of my anxiety go away. when i'm freaking out and unable to think rationally, he can look at things objectively and calm me down. it's incredible. i loved him tons before i got to MI, and now i love him 5 billion times more.
i have no idea when i'm getting back to TX, other than that it'll be before christmas. i miss my family tons, but i really, really don't want to go back without nic at this point. i'm very very very happy to be with him, and i don't want to have to miss him again. i think i've done enough of that, kthnx. so, i will wait it out while the stuff that needs to get done gets done. by the time i find a job down there and start getting paid, it'll be too late for christmas, but hopefully i can make it up to everyone later. i'm hoping that once we get settled and figure out how much money we'll have, we can find ourselves an apartment and get our awesome life together started. technically, it's already started, but it'll be cool when we're living on our own.
so yeah, that's about it at this point. i WAS reading by flashlight, but the batteries started to die so i'm tooling around online for a bit until i get sleepy. which will be fairly soon, i think.
xposted to my site & prolly myspace
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[29 Aug 2008|07:43pm] |
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is it sunday yet? i need to go to MI. i can't seem to do anything right so i need to get away for awhile.
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i have been sick for too long. and it's not getting better. i don't understand.
i really don't want to be awake.
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one of my ps2 memory cards is missing. the one with the game saves. if i want to finish kingdom hearts, i have to start ALL OVER. :/
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